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if you had a day where nobody would
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recognize you i don't think i'd be that
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different honestly i dropped the whole
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trying to be something for somebody a
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long time ago so i pretty much walk
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through the world except when i want to
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be funny or i want to do something
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outrageous i don't have any trouble
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being myself and i don't have any
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trouble saying no when i mean no when uh
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i don't feel
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there is a you know pressing
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uh responsibility to please everyone i'm
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not unkind to people i love people i
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would much prefer saying hello and who
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are you and what are you doing today
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then uh giving a selfie because selfies
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stop the world you know they stop life
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you then go
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like that and it's going on instagram uh
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to give people a false sense
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of relevance people talk about
0:49
depression all the time the difference
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between depression and sadness sadness
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is just
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you know from happenstance whatever
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happened or didn't happen for you or you
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know
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grief or whatever it is and depression
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is
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your body saying
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you
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i don't want to be this character
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anymore
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i don't want to hold up this this avatar
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that you've created in the world it's
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too much for me deep rest your body
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needs to be depressed it needs deep rest
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from the character that you've been
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trying to play i act because i'm broken
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in
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a lot of pieces
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and uh acting gives me a chance to
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reconfigure those pieces into a thousand
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different things uh that are positive
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for people to watch was there a moment
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where you first sort of realized like
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i want to be a performer this is the
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thing that i want to do with my life
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uh there was never any other choice from
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the time i that there was consciousness
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in the body
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i was i was looking at a man named percy
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my dad who was
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the
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most incredible character that you'd
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ever meet if you met him for five
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minutes you thought you knew him for 50
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years
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and he wrapped everyone that came into
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our house in stories and jokes and
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i became his calling at a certain point
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and he was always super behind me but
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from the first time i can remember him
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just lighting up the room you know and
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him just like wrapping everybody in a
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story or whatever and and going oh
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that's that's the thing i want to do you
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know that's that's what i want to be
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my father could have been a great
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comedian but he didn't believe that that
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was possible for him and so he made a
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conservative choice instead he got a
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safe job as an accountant and when i was
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12 years old
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he was let go from that safe job
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and our family had to do whatever we
2:42
could to survive
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i learned many great lessons from my
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father
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not the least of which was that you can
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fail at what you don't want so you might
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as well take a chance on doing what you
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love you know i watched the effect of my
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father's love and humor
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and how it altered the world around me
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and i thought
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that's something to do that's something
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worth my time
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it wasn't long before i started acting
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up you know people would come over to
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the house and they'd be greeted by a
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seven-year-old throwing himself down a
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large flight of stairs
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they would say what happened
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and i would say i don't know let's check
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the replay
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i'd go back to the top of the stairs and
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come back down in slow motion now fear
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is going to be a player in your life
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but you get to decide how much
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you can spend your whole life imagining
3:34
ghosts worrying about the pathway to the
3:36
future but all there will ever be
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is what's happening here
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and the decisions we make in this moment
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which are based in either love or fear
3:46
so many of us choose our path out of
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fear disguised as practicality
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what we really want seems impossibly out
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of reach and ridiculous to expect so we
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never dare to ask the universe for it
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when i was about 28 after a decade as a
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professional comedian i realized one
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night in la that the purpose of my life
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had always been to free people from
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concern just like my dad
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the only one i hadn't freed
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was myself
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and that's when my search for identity
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deepened
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i wondered who i'd be without my fame
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who would i be if i said things that
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people didn't want to hear
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or if i defied their expectations of me
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and that peace that we're after lies
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somewhere beyond personality beyond the
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perception of others beyond invention
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and disguise even beyond effort itself
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you can join the game fight the wars
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play with form all you want
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but to find real peace you have to let
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the armor go your need for acceptance
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can make you invisible in this world
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don't let anything stand in the way of
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the light that shines through this form
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risk being seen
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in all of your glory
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your job is not to figure out how it's
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going to happen for you but to open the
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door in your head and when the door
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opens in real life just walk through it
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and don't worry if you miss your queue
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because there's always doors opening
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they keep opening
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and when i say
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life doesn't happen to you
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it happens for you i really don't know
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if that's true
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i'm just making a conscious choice to
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perceive challenges as something
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beneficial so that i can deal with them
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in the most productive way
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you'll come up with your own style
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that's part of the fun
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you are ready and able to do beautiful
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things in this world
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and after you walk through those doors
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today you will only ever have two
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choices
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love or fear
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choose love
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and don't ever let fear turn you against
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your playful heart what's happening
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right now inside everybody is they're
5:52
going who am i
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and they're depressed people go like oh
5:56
jim's been depressed and stuff well yeah
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i was depressed when i was trying to be
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the wizard of oz but now i know that oz
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is a character you know i think
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everybody deals with that everybody
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walks around and they go like why am i
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depressed well it's because you're
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trying to be something for the world
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you know and as soon as you
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let that go
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better things happen because they're
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just happening it's not uh
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you know now it's just sadness you know
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sadness comes happiness comes it's the
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weather that
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flies by in the sky it doesn't sit on
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you long enough to drown you a few
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months ago
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i woke up
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and
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i suddenly got it i understood suddenly
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how thought was just an illusory thing
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and how
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thought is responsible for if not all
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most of the suffering
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we experience
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and then
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i suddenly felt like i was looking at
6:58
these thoughts from another perspective
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and i wondered who is it that's aware
7:02
that i'm thinking and suddenly i was
7:05
thrown into this expansive
7:08
amazing feeling
7:10
of freedom
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from myself from my problems
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you know when i go to sleep at night i'm
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not just a guy going to sleep
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i'm two-time golden globe winner
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jim carrey going
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to get some well-needed shut-eye
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and when i dream i don't just dream any
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old dream
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no sir
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i dream about being three-time golden
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globe winning
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actor jim carrey
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because then i would be enough
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[Applause]
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it would finally be true
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and i could stop this
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this terrible search
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for what i know ultimately won't fulfill
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me
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[Music]
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you
